P-O-S-T -- Power On Self Test.
Do you remember this term? POST?
Its from the good old days.. the 90s.. when internet was still nascent and you could not see what the person is typing on his laptop as he typed it.
Yeah.. Those were the days..
POST - Power On Self Test
SMTP - Simple Mail Transfer Protocol
Remember those? No??
But I do..
I remember those and a few additional things too.
I have been meaning to write about this for quite some time.. But the ED summons messed it up. Now that ED is done.. I will write about the hilarious day later in another post. But for now. Lets just be as slightly serious as possible.
You see, in my last thread - My Pursuits 2.. around the time for the last few posts. I had mentioned about the user called Prasad1. Who used to post AI generated text long before AI was known as a tool to the whole wide world.. The rats were using their newly acquired tech on small platforms to fully study their capabilities and effects on the public. Once they have thoroughly finished their studies.. they released the tech among the guinea pigs.. us..
Ok. where is this going??
Are you hallucinating again?? any sense of delusional thinking??
No. No.. No...
I do believe that I am still thinking on a evidence based approach that the good Masters student at IMH taught me. I dont believe I will be talking shit from now without some semblance of an evidence and backup..
ok. Lets come back..
Dude.. dont disturb me and block the natural flow.
hehehe.. thats the cynical comedy track on the side there.. do laugh if you feel like it ..
Ok lets get back to the current..
So its obvious from the posts on our very own Tamilbrahmins.com by our very own popular poster with username prasad1.. that tech is first tested out on the public in small spheres. And is later released in such a way that most people dont notice that it was tested at all.
Dude.. where are you going with this?
Wait.. wait..
Dude.. do you have anything to say at all or are you bloody wasting my time at this time of the night.
No.. No.. I do have something to say.
Infact, I am trying to get it out quickly in words here. I already kept rice in the electric cooker and I have to go before it turns to Keep Warm or it gets burnt. overcooked.
Ok. Stop. Lets just proceed..
Do you guys remember my first bout of Auditory Hallucinations??
mmm... is someone's stomach slightly getting upset??? maybe you want to use the toilet and come back?? Yes?? .. No??
Ok.
Lets go with the auditory hallucinations part. I was administered a depot injection of Paliperidone around the end of November in Singapore by my then doctor Dr. Hari.
Ok.. so thats a good thing right?? whats so great about it?
Shut up will you? I am trying to finish what I am trying to say.. and the rice is also cooking.
Ok. go ahead.. I will keep quiet..
So..
Still there.. ??
Ok.
So. The auditory hallucinations started around the afternoon of the second day after the injection. Second ?? Maybe .. but definitely not more than third or fourth day.
Is there some sound coming out of someones belly.. ?? maybe stomach trouble is starting?? You sure you dont want to use the toilet??
ok. Lets go..
You see.. the events of that afternoon played out somewhat like this.
I was actually having my mid noon siesta (a short nap) when I suddenly woke up. Someone was waking me up.
But there was no one. I looked around.
It was not a voice as in like clear audible sound. It was like someone was talking to me in my brain.
Hello?.. are you able to listen to what I am saying? The voice (for now lets call it a voice) said.
I just stared at my empty room.
Then in my mind, I replied yes.
The voice said. Ok. Can you turn your head right? I turned my head right.
Ok. Can you turn your head left now? I turned my head left.
Good. Please see if you can lift your arm. I raised my arm slightly.
Good. The voice said.
Are you able to move your legs? I moved them off the bed and came to sitting position on my bed with my feet on the ground.
Good. The voice said.
Then.. the voice started talking normally. The further events were not of great concern except for two facts. The voice always talked in English. Good. Clean. English. And it asked me questions about what was happening inside the temple. At that time, as the evening approached there was porappaadu and neivedhyam was happening to the deity as it was being placed near the dwajasthambam in Singapore perumal koil in Farrer Park. The voice was particularly interested in what was happening behind the tharai - screen as the neivedhyam to the lord happened. I forcefully replied I dont know. Why is an auditory hallucination curious about hindu rituals?
Now.. if you are a shrewd observer. And you are atleast half intelligent.. you should have some basic questions
Now, we all have read about auditory hallucinations.
But.
Has there been any recorded instance of an auditory hallucination where the voice was so kind enough to check if I was able to move my head, lift my arm, move my legs and I was pretty much able to physically function normally ??? and all this before it started on its jolly ride of a mix of intimidation and cajoling to get to know what I knew.
Has there been any instance like this?
Yes??
No??
Please do a thorough research.
Has there been an auditory hallucination instance where the voice checked if my functionality was ok? before starting its job of talking to me?
Does this not sound like the very basic concept of P-O-S-T?? Power On Self Test
The Power On Self Test was prominent in the days of the PC-XT systems which was in the 80s. when the floppy disks with 640kb capacity existed and hard disk capacity was only 20MB or around that.
So this P-O-S-T concept is 'that fundamental' in testing when you enter the world of western science.
So now my question is this.
Was my Auditory Hallucination merely a test of technology that is yet to be released to the public? We already know that a person can move a cursor with his brain - this tech is as old as the 90s. How much more advancement has been made in sensing or reading brain activity since the 90s. Does anyone know for sure?
Could it be that our friendly neighbourhood friend with username prasad1 has friends who have been researching other technologies like communicating ideas to the brain directly.
Duuuudddddeeee... that is waaayyyyy out there man.. Are you nuts??
Nope. I am not nuts. Please read the above all over again and digest the fact that P-O-S-T or Power On Self Test is a extremely fundamental step in western technology.
mmm.. cooked already??
I mean.. the rice. I had kept it in the electric cooker.. what were you thinking?? that I was asking if the crooks reading this post are cooked?? Naaaa....
I did really mean my rice.
Its late and I do need to eat dinner..
Ok. Lets leave the high tech to the americans and come back to our simple way of life and our simpletons in Tamilnadu.
You know I have a fundamental problem here. Its very difficult to explain to an average simple tamil person that I am delusional. I did try multiple times and I just failed again and again and again.
They just seem to stare at me and ask... whats wrong with you? How come you say you are disabled? You are talking fine to me.
Do you know how seriously irritating that is? to listen to that comment? especially if you have had heavy medications multiple times specifically over long periods ?? huh.. ?? Do you even know how it feels to be in a psych ward in IMH Singapore?
These people just dont know.
And there is no way I am able to explain to them what i am going through and why I am disabled.
So.
I just started this simple trick which I saw in a movie.
Mera baba mar gaya..
the mera baba mar gaya fellow shoots kamalahasan dead in the end of the movie Nayagan. The very old superhit movie.
So I started doing the same thing.
Imitate - Mera Baba Mar Gaya.
Over time, I realised that it was a bit too much even for me. So I simplified things a bit and simply acted like stammering.
And it worked.
People cannot understand deep concepts like delusions or hallucinations or such things. But they understand what they see and hear. And when they hear a stammer. They know instinctively know that something is wrong with you. So my job of communicating that I have a real problem instead of having to go into a whole teaching session.. is made easy.
So...
Stammer away it is..
For now.
Until someone .. somewhere.. reads this post and wonders about POST (Power On Self Test). Was my hallucination man-made? Is someone trying to permanently brand me as insane and delusional and other such things.
Cooked?
Definitely.
The rice is cooked. I am going to have dinner now.
ciao..
Ahh yes.. the song for today.. to meet the mood of the current time. Actually I believe its just the sound track of a trailer.. of none other than our Thalaivar movie.. Coolie.
D I S C O - Disco. Disco.
and in my words.. P S Y C O - Psyco. Psyco.
Enjoy...
