As I write this I am aware that I am sharing something which is a real life happening and it is personal. I hope readers will respect the confidence I place in them.
My intention is to ask if anyone else has been through this trauma and suffering or knows such a real life story and what was the final salvation.
I am in my mid 50s. Till year 2016 I had a life that was blessed in every way. Nothing was missing in life, my connect to God was the strongest. My family and I were having the best years. I hold multiple high academic qualifications and was respected immensely by people around me many of whom till today say that they owe their career growth and prosperity to my guidance.
I don't feel that I did something special at the same time I did go beyond my limits to support and promote them but I have no claim or pride that I did this, rather it was God who enabled me to help them. I was just God's instrument.
In Q3 2016 everything changed. Lost my job of decades, lost my health, family members health also affected. In the last 7 years (84 months) since the bad times began, I have had income from temporary assignments and such for about 30 months (small periods of work and larger periods of no work). I have offered to work for free in my field to keep my mind active and learning....but still not got work. The problem is not the material aspects (by Gods grace we are managing on a very simple and frugal life).
What is more traumatizing is the reality of having no work (I used to voluntarily work at least 10-14 hours each day and took only one day off in a 5 day week). I was a workaholic from day one that I joined my first job about 30 years ago.
I have done just about everything that Astrologers and elders could recommend - visiting powerful temples to change destiny such as Brahmapureeswarar and Sri Vanchiyam, offering prayers for Sani mahadasa (currently running and at the mid way of 19 years duration), performing Tila-Homam at Tirupullani, Sudarsana Homam at Kumbakonam, and so many other Homams and prayers.
On several days I feel I have lost the meaning and purpose of life and the will to continue.
Sometimes when we face a problem much larger than we alone can tackle, we look for some divine intervention and guidance from elders and Gurus.
Is there anyone in this spiritual group who can relate to this and show a direction as to what I need to do as a prayer or offering or penance to overcome the trauma that continues. Thank you.
My intention is to ask if anyone else has been through this trauma and suffering or knows such a real life story and what was the final salvation.
I am in my mid 50s. Till year 2016 I had a life that was blessed in every way. Nothing was missing in life, my connect to God was the strongest. My family and I were having the best years. I hold multiple high academic qualifications and was respected immensely by people around me many of whom till today say that they owe their career growth and prosperity to my guidance.
I don't feel that I did something special at the same time I did go beyond my limits to support and promote them but I have no claim or pride that I did this, rather it was God who enabled me to help them. I was just God's instrument.
In Q3 2016 everything changed. Lost my job of decades, lost my health, family members health also affected. In the last 7 years (84 months) since the bad times began, I have had income from temporary assignments and such for about 30 months (small periods of work and larger periods of no work). I have offered to work for free in my field to keep my mind active and learning....but still not got work. The problem is not the material aspects (by Gods grace we are managing on a very simple and frugal life).
What is more traumatizing is the reality of having no work (I used to voluntarily work at least 10-14 hours each day and took only one day off in a 5 day week). I was a workaholic from day one that I joined my first job about 30 years ago.
I have done just about everything that Astrologers and elders could recommend - visiting powerful temples to change destiny such as Brahmapureeswarar and Sri Vanchiyam, offering prayers for Sani mahadasa (currently running and at the mid way of 19 years duration), performing Tila-Homam at Tirupullani, Sudarsana Homam at Kumbakonam, and so many other Homams and prayers.
On several days I feel I have lost the meaning and purpose of life and the will to continue.
Sometimes when we face a problem much larger than we alone can tackle, we look for some divine intervention and guidance from elders and Gurus.
Is there anyone in this spiritual group who can relate to this and show a direction as to what I need to do as a prayer or offering or penance to overcome the trauma that continues. Thank you.
